Action Dreams

I am so tired.

My doctor, who is also my son’s doctor, recently said in order to get proper sleep, I was going to have to wean my son through the night.

My little guy now goes to sleep at about 7:30 p.m. and sleeps until around 5:30 a.m.

So I should be getting around nine hours of sleep myself.

But then I remembered – I have never had uninterrupted sleep.

I get up every couple of hours to pee even if I don’t after dinner. And then there are my action dreams.

Now that I am likely getting into a deep sleep, my action dreams, or sleepwalking, have return with a vengeance and I find myself wandering around the bedroom or down the hall.

I jump out of the bed in terror because in my dreams my son is choking or I have somehow lost him.

I wake up reaching for things, pushing away things or hiding from things. I have the same dream each night, waking up in the midst of saving my husband (or just shaking him awake) or scaling the wall because I have seen something.

I am so tired, not because my son is up every two hours to nurse, but because I am up non-stop, even when I am sleeping